The Enjoyment of a Laziness

This morning I woke up at nine in the morning with a superb headache and the whole illness of sleepiness. When I woke up, the first thing that I do is not praying or being grateful that I can still wake up today or even look at outside scenery. Smartphone! that is the first thing that I remembered to reach, not just today, but every single day after I open my eyes from a long deep sleep. I don't know why I do this, is it because I hope I received a reply from the girl that I think cute and I want to get to know her better? or the dopamine of instant pleasures that a smartphone could give? Instead of doing any regular routines in the morning.

The notification pop-ups from my google calendar apps reminding me that I will have a class in thirty minutes, "Ah shit, here we go again" at that time, I realized I would be facing a class that will make me have to listen for almost one and a half hour, yeah one and a half hour Goodness gracious. While waiting for the class, I try to kill time by having screen time scrolling through the infinite amount of Instagram posts, watching youtube videos, and unimportant stuff. Don't worry, and I wouldn't tell you how the class situation is or anything related to that. I want to tell you that today is the worst day of my life, which makes me have to stare at my phone all the time. That's not the case though three people message me and asking for a loan. I mean, WTF did I look like a bank or something. After that, this overthinking of not having enough money until the end of the month suddenly haunts me and makes me feel uncomfortable throughout the day. I guess that would be the end of my miserable part, and the next part will be evaluation and self-improvement for the next day.

Today is the worst day; tomorrow would have to be better. That's my hope and motivation at last. So my evaluation for today is that "STOP STARRING AT YOUR PHONE ALL THE TIME, GET YOUR ASS MOVING AND START SOME PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES." that's number one, I believe, and number two: please schedule your day, take a bath early in the morning, do shubuh praying, get some physical activities to start your day, and stop scrolling through social media.